Monday, May 07, 2007

I just got a big dose of reality delivered to my driveway.

All of a sudden, it's finally hitting me that I'm not going to live here any more. A truck driver just dropped off my PODS pod, and over the next few days I'm going to be loading all my possessions into it.

Our house has had lookers, but it hasn't sold yet. We're going to be renting a place in Nashville, and only after we sell this house and buy the next one are we going to get them to drop off the pod so we can unload it.

It's making me really sad. I absolutely love this house, and I have yet to find a house in Nashville that I like as much as I like my current home. It is going to be heartbreaking to think about my house sitting empty here in Searcy while I'm renting a second home from someone in Nashville. I have good memories of this house. I love my neighborhood.

I guess this is one of the sacrifices I'm having to make moving to Nashville. There's a lot I'll love about Nashville, but it's going to be bittersweet. I wish I could have my friends and home in Searcy and all that I'm looking forward to in Nashville all at the same time. I wish I could keep going to Rose Bud while we're starting things up at Old Hickory. Unfortunately, life forces us to accept the results of our choices, and I can't have both.

I think this move is going to be a blessing for us. It's just hitting me hard to know that right now, a major phase of my life is ending. Frankly, I feel the same as I did on the day I graduated from high school. I'm sure God has something in store, and I'm sure it will have some good and some bad. The hard part is just having no idea what's going to happen next. At this particular moment, that scares me to death.


  1. I know exactly how you feel -- that's how I felt when we moved here. We had just finished a week or two at my parents' house for Christmas, then we left for here. The morning we left was SO hard. That's only the 2nd time I remember seeing my dad cry. I knew that moving to Nashville would be great for me and Rob and that it would bring all kinds of blessings with it -- many I would have never expected. But that didn't change the fact that I was leaving behind life as I'd always known it. Change can be a really scary thing, but I've realized that in the end, it's nearly always good for you. :)

  2. Thanks for the encouragement, Jennie! So far it's been a little rough with Carolina getting sick, but I think it's going to be a good situation for us. We need to see you guys soon!